fall way low

week 88 of . theme was to draw a pony descending.
of course i went with the opposite of last week, iconically poof-pinkie falling while 'pinkamena' was jumping.

i had a hell of a hard time this week; I don't know why but I've been just completely sapped of inspiration and will to draw despite a heavy attempt to stay "feeling good" and feeling motivated and all that. I spent the last 3 days just opening up the image in SAI and trying to get the head to look right in about a million different ways and I'm still not quite satisfied with the result. I'm still struggling and failing to get plain, simple ponies to look right in various simple poses, and I feel like I'm stagnating -- I'm having a lot of trouble here, but every time lately that I feel like giving up I keep thinking... "no, no matter how bad it gets, as long as I don't give up completely, I'll get there". I don't even really know *how* to grow much, and it's felt very painful to even try to draw lately, but I *need* to. I guess the problem is I"m bossing myself around too much and not actually having fun with it -- but look, I'm 26 and at this level. It's impossible for me to not be 'mad' at myself and 'push myself to the breaking point' at this rate -- I keep getting older and not getting better, you know?

But who am I to sit here and fill this space with whining? And it's not like anyone reads these anyway -- no one even responded to my query about the ATG last week, I guess I should put that stuff in journals and not piece descriptions. Of course, I feel I owe you a description of why the piece could be better, though.

Anyway, I tried a tiny bit more shading (still not much, though) and tried to get the clouds to look a bit better, as per 's requests. of course, it's not nearly as much as I could've done, but... it's a start. And I suppose I could use the excuse of not wanting it to look TOO different from last week's, haha.